Social Anxiety at 5 Years Old

I remember and associate many things from my infancy, when I was 5 years old I started to go to school, that was a very difficult time. I remember that for me to go to school was a nightmare, I used to cry every morning, I didn't want to be there.

Now I now why: first I had a teacher that used the old school methods, she was allways screaming and threatening, I used to be very scared of her, plus being surounded by all the kids with whom I didn't know how to stablish a relationship.

I grew up alone, I didn't have any friends, I didn't know how to make friends, I learned from my mother that people was dangerous... because of her agressivity towards me. Other people close to me like family where the same, I was allways beeing beat up or yelled up by others, just had an aunt that was trying to defend me from my mother.

I am just finding the reasons why I am affraid of people today? Why do I have Social Anxiety? Have you ever question yourself about it? What was it like when you were a child?

And this makes sense to me... Simple, I learned that the others were agressive and dangerous, unfortunatelly.

Will continue next time.