Love and Social Anxiety

Found myself with love... Being a person with social anxiety makes love life much, much difficult. Whenever you meet a person (somebody whom you might be interested in), there is always that feeling of anxiety towards what is going to happen: How can I get closer to that person? What do I do so the other person doesn’t find about my social anxiety?

I met somebody the other day, I am really interested in this person, and I found that has the initial characteristics I look for , talking about a relationship. But f**ck, I am so scared now, I don’t know what to do, I don’t know how to act. It feels so bad this sensation of insecurity, every single day I keep thinking what to do, how to talk to the person, how to act, if I should say this… no that is wrong, should I say something else? That neither, this is so f***king confusing…

I write trying to find clearness in my mind, trying to let go the anxiety feeling out of me and get to the point where I can think clear and be able to get calm.

I have many expectations towards this person, even though in reality there is no hope… see this person has a relationship already. It is just good to nurture your feelings of love and hope some times, what am I going to do now.

I am just going to continue with life, what ever happens, just have to continue doing the right things for my life: work, study, exercise, healthy lifestyle, you will meet happiness at the end.

Finally I will like to evoke the words of Harriet Beecher Stowe:

“When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you, till it seems as though you could not hang on a minute longer, never give up, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn.”